October 10th, 2006

Sailor Steeler

Why should I let that stop me?

Earlier today, I was majorly bummed by the fact that YouTube got bought by Google. I felt as though all my dreams were dashed, my hopes ruined, and while life wasn't pointless, I felt as though my wave of euphoria had crashed against the cold wall of reality.

Then I thought of the Amish in Lancaster County who had just suffered a level of horror and tragedy that is unimaginable.

No, I didn't think I was glad not to be them. I thought about their forgiveness, and I know that while the media reported it as automatic, we don't know if it was easy as the media likes to proclaim. I can't speak for them, and I can't imagine the depths of the pain they felt, but I do believe that if something like that happened to my family, I would be very hurt.

But then the crtitical question becomes, "Why should you let that stop you?"

Don't get me wrong, there are certain things that people can't do as of now. People can't fly unassisted, teleport from one location to the other, or cause the earth to shake violently on mental command. But there are some things we can do, even if it takes a tremendous effort, or even "wrong" by conventional wisdom. That's not to say it doesn't hurt if someone plunges a knife into your very soul. It hurts, and to trivialize pain by saying "So what?" is a form of denial. Acknowledgement is critical to the healing process.

But to turly forgive someone after all that isn't just to pretend to forget. To truly forgive means that you have to confront the pain, then to not let it stop you. You don't move on, but you move through. Why let the pain stop you?

Because you're weak -- Don't stop. Keep going. Know you are weak but growing stronger.

Because you're tired -- Don't stop. Keep going. Know that impatience is a great saboteur and slow down.

Because it hurts -- Don't stop. Keep going. Know it hurts but channel the pain into something greater.

Why should I let the affairs of the world stop me from having a good mood? I shouldn't...and I won't.
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