January 27th, 2010

Sailor Steeler

Writer's Block: Unfriended, Unspecified!

Has anyone ever unfriended you without explanation? Did you ask why? Have you ever deleted someone from your friend list without saying why?

Yes, yes, and hell yes.

I'll answer the last question first as my previous post indicated, in times of despair, I defriended people and was just a terror to them because they had the nerve to convince me that life was not meaningless.  Usually those people (for the sake of given them a name, I'm calling them, "Daisy Randolphs") would say that one day, I'd snap out of it and realize I do have something to offer the world, but that they would continue to support me anyway, even as I pushed them away.

The problem is some of those Daisy Randolphs actually defriended me when I stopped being (as) emo and thinking of myself as the worst person ever.  Usually I ask for explanation, but either I get none, or they're mad about the same things they told me to get over and act judgmental in the same way I used to do.   It's strange how the same Daisy Randolphs who begged me to get some self-esteem and stop being trapped in the same circle now shun me for it and now try to convince me that I am the worst person ever, especially over the same junk I used to wallow in.

Why can't everyone be positive and loving at the same time?