Sometimes, apathy can be one's best friend. The fact that people don't care about you can be used to your advantage. It means that when people are ignoring you, you can plot their doom openly and everyone will think you are crazy and think nothing of it. No need to hide behind the mask of suspicion. I think I've been too paranoid. After all, if I tell someone my secrets and they keep them, part of the pact is not to care, not to let someone goad them one way or the other what they know. In short, if I give you a red ball and then I say I gave you a blue ball, your job is simply not to care what I say. Because once you care, all trust is broken, and paranoia runs rampant.