For some reason, I don't want to get on AIM. It's not that I want to avoid anyone, really. But the thing is, seeing all those screen names on that buddy list reminds me of the intense focus I have on things at time. I see the name of a wrestling fan and am reminded that it's been almost two, maybe even three years since I stopped watching wrestling entirely. I see the name of someone who is an Ogre Battle fan and I think, "Why haven't I gotten further in my comic than I have?" I see then name of someone who is supremely talented and it makes me remember how far ahead they are of me. So, instead of whining about it, or not whining about it and looking at the buddy list, I've decided not to be on at all lately.