Other people are able to do far more with far less, and other people do more than more. People evolve and grow more complex and more skillful.
But when I think of the compilation of my life in the past ten years, while I see where I've changed, I don't see where I've gotten any better at anything. Sure, I can look at a terrible image edit I made years ago or a stupid piece I had written, and recognize that it was bad, but I am not capable of doing anything better. In terms of knowledge, skills, and perhaps even judgment, I feel like I was better a long time ago, than I was now, and that while everyone else tends to become more elaborate, I tend to simplify and degrade. To think I'm not even truly "old" yet, but I feel as though everyone in the world is spinning away from me, leaving me an empty, cold, center with nothing to express.